Life has a way of always throwing us things that feel too big for us. Nathan and I are looking forward to the fall when Nathan will be busy with his calling and work and student teaching seminary and school. Eden and I will be managing at a new complex and keeping busy with her getting into EVERYTHING. We've been thinking about April when we graduate when we look at each other and say..."Now what?" We're not sure whether we'll have a job with seminary and institutes or be looking for a job in the communications field. At some point we'll be going to graduate school. We don't know whether we'll do that right away or work for a year or two and then do it. We don't know if we'll even be able to find a job when we graduate. It's a lot of maybes and no absolutes. This is hard for a person like me. I'm a planner. I have my whole life planned...and it never goes the way I planned. But I guess this time, I can't be wrong, because I have no idea what to plan. So we'll simply move forward, a step at a time, and trust in the Lord and His timing. And we'll learn in time what the plan should be and who we are to become.
Her are a few pieces of happiness that have helped me as I've been lost in questions of what is coming next. It is these simple things that make life worth living. Sitting up at night watching Eden try to open toys and laughing hysterically at her uncontrollable hands and the way she is trying to figure out life. Or sitting outside on our porch watching the sunrise, walking to the temple, waking up early in the morning to read our scriptures, eating a warm bowl of soup on a rainy day, hearing from a friend or family member I haven't heard from in a while, growing closer to Nathan, seeing Eden smile. These things are my happiness. These things are my sunshine.